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MORE FAVORITE THINGS my classical music collection - over 2000 cds, 200 mini discs, 400 cassettes - classical & romantic periods - over 200 composers i pain stakingly recorded each piece, over a period of more than 10 yrs. all lost to a fire which started at a neighbor's home. i also listen to nickelback, rap, dave matthews band means just about everything i find art in. FAVORITE MOVIES:::::::::::: -- betty blue for her indomitable spirit -- Y tu mamá también (director's cut) passion won, shame too -- like water for chocolate so mean and sensual -- moscow doesn't believe in tears cause i love a soap opera -- a beautiful mind an individual brought the dvd to my home and insisted (trying to send me a message) how subtle of him -- a guide to recognizing your saints (it parallels to my life in ways - just look at this webpage) FAVORITE PLAYS:::::::::::: -- the color purple the energy & the soul will remain with you -- cloud nine directed by tommy tune after seeing it, i was fascinated for life by the theatre -- american buffalo pacino put on a 'clinic' best acting i've seen in my life, and i' ve seen at least 30 plays, he re-enforced my love for the theatre -- forty-duce a sexy motha the shit was smokin' -- black angel about forgiveness -- Entertaining Mr Sloane funny as hell ::::::::::::::::: how come the porn bitches can find the add link that's not on this page? ::::::::::::::::: ![]() don't front - you know how we do
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::::::::::::::::::::: i'm here for fun if you can't fuckin' laugh at yourself click here ::::::::::::::::::::: somebody loves me ![]() newest gift - 4th of july it's tough being a nappy headed hoe but somebody's gotta do it
I GOTTA CUT SOME A YOU don't fuckin' take it personally, but you can't call me a friend, and then don't fuckin' message me or comment me, i'm not your bitch. be fuckin' real. 07/19/07, i just deleted 17 "friends" that didn't say shit -- bye :::::::::::::::::: the 1st 10 days 308 visitors 18 commenters thank you - i am honored :::::::::::::::::: MORE FAVORITE THINGS Fox's :: Bill O'rielly gets his ass kicked by Phil Donahue R O D I N love forever better view here
to my lover if i could i'd take you by the hand feeling every finger begging so to understand i'd open your hand and kiss you there place it on my face and wonder of your care i'd kiss you once and then not stop our hearts start racing you guide me on top i whisper these words that only you hear i love you baby please always be there i feel your hands speaking words crystal clearly saying i love you so much and i need you so dearly you are my lover my own sacred friend i pray to the gods our love never ends 07.20.07
this was fun to do. lover said she teared reading it. love love is a promise that grows and doesn't yet grows when it doesn't and in every promise a nucleus faith it's easy to love when you're being loved love operates in the absence of love nothing less can do this 10.10.07
the 45th prick walking in squares and speaking funny talk wearing beads of confusion the coerced passenger bares a ticket to Lost with sights and sounds unfamiliar his massy machine was picking up steam we can stop this trip quick get the pins help me fight for my will we can make my mind still i will now lay down what is my name we must be quick in the back of my thigh begin to prick his war had ensued he would not win he would not lose this time ow ow! don't stop owww! god! oh! god! ah! please do not stoppp! ow! ohh!... around the 45th prick he could feel no more his stolen senses were quietly restored his body had waned to an audible snore she looks down at her love with tears in her eyes a long breath later she begins to cry her tears streamed down onto her fallen hero 08.06.07
to whom it may concern: i came to the disgust of your realization that i am free and you are not that i can be me you fear the thought so don't impede and do not block i flow like a spirit you weigh like a rock my love endures somehow you know push me too far and shit you will go i might be a spectacle to someone like you i am every color your favorite is blue you like to watch so let me spin in a moment or two i'll enjoy your grin peace-out, bitch 08-01=07
in the dark asleep my eyes open slowly seeing so little feeling you there in the same place gathering in the air the damp of your flesh lemongrass and sweat the atlantic and earth dripping secrets of your core a lighted white tower in the quiet of darkness leering down at me the night's last dream always topped with cream my eyes scale slowly remarking the inches surprising my eyes so ecstatic to see you your face like a dial lit up by a touch with hands all stuck at timeless seconds we have lift off left right left right dancing nearing meeting there in the same place speaking their language of signs and contact for the first time feeling and truthing clinging gently and firmly effortlessly to each other and the truth in the dark 08.21.07
i am provocative people that have to cling rigidly to their beliefs run like hell when they see me r u s h i get a hold of them the bottoms with my teeth don't worry you'd survive witnesses guarantee teeth opening and closing on the bottoms of your feet you could squeeze a few pillows or beg for your mommy you could pull me tightly or blackout once again just tell me our word and i'll soon stop but excited you get and our word you forgot in a newborn haze you're suddenly rushed offering zero resistance you feel the crush you mentally struggle to remember how to speak slowly wondering you return to memories of your feet 07.25.07
never letting go i walked on bleecker street at the most perfect times sultry summer saturday nights trying to luck up on something unknown something new an intelligent talk a quiet play a dinner and drinks for a secret lay a perfect exchange ...read more - here 11.08.07
i love you every time i see your smile hold you closely or watch you cry and every time when i'm lost and ill i can feel your hand reaching out to guide me even when you're not there every time it makes me cry we own mountains one called faith where from the top we leave our clothes to climb the stars admiring from afar and on the way down we reach love mountain with springs and falls gentle streams and rivers and caves so warm filled with closeness so complete and secure these things are ours to have and to hold together we made them we are mountains ours forever 01.30.08
happy birthday baby there's not enough time in existance for me to tell you how much i love you question can you take me i come deep pointed and blunt hurting satisfying why do you want me there 02.01.08
a part i remember this death when promises fleet atop passing butterflies when promises morph into pain filled lies i remember this death a comatose trust and diseased innocence i remember this death alive in me 02.20.08
breathing compost i could smell your compost see into it as well your lifeless dreams still under a spell laying near death only half covered by a last-day tampon and bare chicken bones under killed mockingbirds still screeching of love still posing as doves in need of blood destined with harm for you replete with unfairness and lopsided love of insecurity and doubt and strings for you could be loved by a prisoner without becoming imprisoned free yet captive to its breathing 02.29.08
no more blues often i swam in the bay without a suit naturally and a thousand small fish i sensed scrambling my way violently piercing the sea and the air being chased by a predator hostile hungry horny blues in mortal pursuit and a thousand fish crash blindly into me almost all at once everywhere it never hurt it kinda felt good like a thousand wet kisses all at once everywhere still at the rush the leaving last seconds you don't want to end after a few such encounters it had become my friend it was so mine so mine i couldn't give a damn about the 10 pound blues thundering from behind that coulda ripped my dick off at almost any time powerful and intense pungent and tender i loved fishing for blues from my boat and party boats i've seen an unhappy blue separate a man from his thumb a lotta blood that day i stopped fishing when i reeled in a bluefish i hooked through the eyes they were gone completely sockets empty i lost control that day i couldn't unwitness what i had done knowing that something i loved i'd never love again never again never love again the kids were happy they got my rods my jigs and hooks my 30-pound test shit i worshiped fighting the blues 09.25.07
you don't love me when i cry you don't love me when i cry when i don't understand when i want to know why you want to love me in pieces but i don't come in parts you must take me all if you want my heart forgiveness is what i need from you forgiveness is what i plan to do here i am in trust and in love both larger than me and greater than you if you take my hand together we'll grow through unknown fields of flowers and sunshine and life's hidden land mines with all of my heart and all of my care my promise to you i'll always be there x this i swear 10.12.07
MORE WRITING the sucky dream
waiting in pain
sleeping dogs
B E L O W :::::::::::::::: you re-write & post it come on, i was doing something else when these 2 shitty pieces were fighting for life - okay, the 1st one isn't. i tried. i fear they will be tossed in the word pile. you ever play doctor? they want to live - save them lip-play my lips are not wet my lips are juicy lip-play is my accelerant with my lips i grab your bottom lip and hold it there between my lips gently ahhhhhh it get ridiculous it barely fits when we kiss re-do - post it here slippery when wet i ran into the shower when i came in from basketball and in the shower you appeared we giggled nervously and touched below the noise and the spray wet everywhere touching each other there and there fingers gripping then gliding across your surface recording your feel wet against me ........ slickly ....... gently kissing slippery and wet re-do - post it here
people don't stick to me i'm worse than teflon if you want at me you better come and come hard i have some friends & family that could not love me more that can't fuckin' wait for me to go down if you're in the same situation, odds are, you're a Motha too welcome to the club
me & my wife they teach me love ![]() my cat & dog larger view - here
touch me/love me click image above ![]() twice removed it was dark i was lost and naked somewhere unknown and unafraid in the street naked & cold if you find me please not notice 07.19.07
rodin sculpture at MOMA n.y.c. sunday, 07.29.07
top or bottom?
10.23.07 -- shooting daryle ::: which do you like better? i only hang with supernatural cats don't hold it against me daryle & chris are two of them 09.04.07
shot an hour ago with daryle - 01.01.08 4:58pm
shot last weekend
do you think they love me?
i've givin' you a glimpse into my life at least as much as myspace would allow thanks being insane has its perks contact me if you're interested in becoming further acquainted if you're a friend peace to my friends: thanks guys, for being so supportive with your generous comments and messages, from you to me the #1 quesition is: what are you? that shit hurts but here goes... i'm a little mixed but i consider myself a: c e n s o r e d (and i love it - can't you tell?) to answer #2 question i wouldn't have sex with you if you were the last person on earth check that - maybe |
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![]() me - last year and yeah - i'm a motha ![]() ![]() shot this from a bridge ![]() ![]() my Sun Alex is 16 got his S A T results today 2200 - he's a Sun of a motha! ![]() my mother and her man - she's over 70 - a recent pic ![]()
To The Thought That One
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() i shot this cloud being born ![]()
![]() burning tree :: shot at dawn w/ a nikon fm w/ a tripod & cable release, 20 second exposure - loner shit :: i am a loner, and have learned to love it ![]() V O I C E L E S S W I S H E S there behind a poorly hidden inviting smile with an indented midsection and a biscuit butt-- early on the rise and calves--slickedy smooth still awkward in beauty though complete in composition unable to hide the tremoring fingers and screaming anticipation surges of instinct and stampeding excitement dashed the barriers of consciousness that had rendered unattended our desperate affections left incapable of pretending not to know sacredest territories were suddenly exposed anonymous desires and unclaimed wishes met for nourishment and hugs & kisses a relaxed entrance lined with welcome and thought filled motions in united isolation in space rendered undisguised and obvious with truth and fidelity and unquestioned sincerity unwithheld sounds of inner excitement through unchartered passages and internal delightment we quietly laid in our sacred cuddle binded by evidence and mingled perspiration in what was left of our mutual explanation rich with account and certain in spirit the rare spare moments in life when we live it i was in church thinking that when i get home i'm gonna write a sex poem - musta been someone i saw there
![]() Sun and D-Rad in nyc :: hand held shot ![]() this is my desktop wallpaper - right click it and do it (set to stretch, not tile). ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() 09.14.07 - from the george washington bridge at 6:45am ![]() shooting images while driving is stupid. sometimes i'm stupid.
THE BUFFALO ROADHOUSE (1981) i can take it the west side highway again tough getting over the loss of some friends at happ'ning joints we sat for hours swappin pasts and dreams fast food and sours and as we grew one thing we knew from what we'd been through and all the care that in our future we'd each be there he moved his lips he raised his head the n.y. times said 150 might surely be dead and then the wonder paralyzing wonder the mother and father of lightning and thunder in its speed it surely came sparing none with its blame shadowy cremations revealed the shame i thought i failed somewhere in our talks cause i got precautious early in my walk with amended realities i look ahead these days thanking the powers i could change my ways i recall the bounce of that highway beneath of all it had meant and all it could teach this restaurant was my our spot in the village, nyc. it's gone now. fuck. ![]() ![]() ever see in b&w and color at the same time this way? -- had to shoot it -- hand held shot ![]()
![]() my squeeze :: we make the angels cry, everynight - often, mornings too - i'm going to hell - sokay ![]() ![]() D-Rad - one word: friend - one reason i live - 8yrs friends, i watched him grow. his mom passed 1 yr. ago, she is a rock, and was my best friend ![]() a money shot - closing day :: nyc :: uss intrepid -- don't steal it ![]() ![]() a shot from my window 2 years ago - the house burned down with my cat inside - saved myka & other cat though ![]()
baby, there was too much smoke i couldn't find you forgive me tears
![]() (fire photos, property of fire department) ![]() find 5 faces and you're as whacked as me (i created with aluminum foil & light - then shot)
![]() my only idol (next to Christ) - i didn't shoot this, and boxing should be outlawed. so Christ wasn't perfect either
TATTOOS DON'T BLEED ON DEAD SKIN there we were taken long before we were ready through barely lit rooms of horror and pain where air is shared with unwelcoming scents bouquets of antiseptic and cancer and the plague surrounded by shelves up high in rows candy jars filled with formaldehyde and hearts tendered most naively then very sharply broken not once or twice but over and over and over again and not out of necessity no not out of need broken for one reason: because they could be my eyes they burned at every turn i saw an archway short and narrow and hit both sides fighting to get through to the room of remains all open for view in their clothes saturated not only with them but with flies and worms and slugs and bugs and empty boxes for dahmer and manson and his gang in this room they kept the murdered saints with a running nose i tried not to breathe the lights went out so i had to feel ahead down below to a faint flickering glow to a forsakened place where angels no longer go met by escorts we were silently led through a corridor like life where souls on fire are just passed by a telling quiet the only warning before sounds of air rushing thru their flames staggering stuns strike long after the pain not once or twice but over and over and over again i begged the escorts to help me get back i wanna go back to nana and the pact if not for long for just a little while back to the late late show the million dollar movie the overbearing seventies the harrad experiment and the stepford wives billy jack and the pam grier flicks a time when hate seemed to decline any time in my life that was pre aids not hard to see this was not gonna be heard by my ears eyes and soul: depend on us not we speak only the language of convenience no longer led we were now being pushed into a room of memories and primitive senses the short lived days of incomplete duets times of promise and times of ignorance with vanishing images and voices unseen terrorizing fear recreates the view up on the wall presented cinematically were replays of harm and base humiliation imposed degradation and personal moments of shame times we wished God was not watching uncomfortable times when life painfully describes for us who we were then then i was tapped on the shoulder by the Saviour in me saying wake up wake up do this not for Thee or was it a necessary or unnecessary torment for seasons of fallacy and spells of fraud or for when and why we chose not to see how the feelings of one affects us all and the immeasurable value of every soul ![]()
10.14.07 in manhattan, traveling north on the fdr, at about 50 miles per hour - i spot the sky above the UN - i can be fast - the trick - is to be slow and deliberate and do not look through the lens ![]() ![]() i call her myka, or just my :::::: she love's me ta death
friends - you gotta click these thumbs to see enlargements - daryle, my Sun, & kids - trick or treating see the scale of the tree & the kids - click it !
![]() i raise dough with the wild yeast from these white flowers i'm such a ..... get lost - click for the enlargement - and comment
![]() these guys were standing at attention had to shoot them - click it - see it large
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![]() i saw brains in the sky - see the enlargement
![]() i drive by here - sometimes, i so, need to see this star ::: again, hand held shot ![]() drew's fifth my friend's young boy they named him drew bares scents of innocence and sweet kiddie dew he loves cars and toys and paints and brushes with fun and excitement his perfect smile rushes he spins his magic and signatured focus with thought and love that's easy to notice today is his day and your day too if you take a moment you'll see that it's true happy birthday little hero we all love you drew wrote this birthday card for a 5yr. old with autism ![]() ![]() 8 stitches under band-aid & painful burns, 104.5 fever from infection -- let's do art color(present) & black&white(past) god, injured, by his own action or in-action, claims his dead Sun's remains on easter sunday
(image above on left is a shadow on the floor - hand/fingers are a shadow too) ![]() click image for enlargement of me ![]() my first play ![]() and of course :: i hit it out of the park ::: not for minors ![]() ![]() my cellphone wallpaper :: call me and say hello at a reasonable time (nyc time) friends only -can only talk for a minute ![]() ![]() do you see me?
photo by christian 2007
09.21.07 - daryle and i were fuckin' havin' a ball, laughing - i'm outta control - in my car in his driveway, condensation is accumulating on the windshield i reach for a camera under my seat that is not there. so i open my cell phone and shoot - a passing car on the left, a gas station light in the center, and a face i spot in the condensation we both start shooting away i explain. it's not about the camera. it's about the eye.
![]() nice formations 24 hrs. before hurricane ivan struck i shot this from the ground but doesn't look so ![]()
08.15.07 d-rad & me in the bronx on arthur av (little italy) at pasquale's, my order: a dozen littlenecks, a side of fries & 2 glasses of a merlot :: the shit was smoother than an invisible ...
a surreal destiny - weird shooting this - they don't give a damn about me or you - wise fuckers ![]()
![]() my Sun was with me when i shot this - it was beautiful
08.25.07 - i kept thinkin' that a car was gonna hit me and i would live in a wheelchair when i shot this ![]()
we are a team - 08.24.07 - end of band camp - senior year, next for my Sun and daryle
![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() finding me i'd love to bathe you i want you to know every inch and every toe from your ankles and legs to your butterflied part hoping to find me somewhere in your heart around the curves and through the woods down your shoulders and back grasping all of your goods and when i let go you'll remember our start and find yourself there in all of my heart this was a note. she liked it. ![]() some really great work was lost to a house fire in 2005 but i can smile about it thanks for stopping by - please comment p e a c e & l o v e a hospital in the bronx
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recent flash files i created obama beats clinton 08
bleeding country: iraq 07
done when i reach for my words they come from deep places under vanished scars and old stolen treasures from slights and pains and sweet daily pleasures i sit down with my laptop then shutout the world just me and some keys i do funny things i drink diet ice tea then stare at a clock i silence the phone and suck on a bone i like the bottom i often start there so my fingers get busy seeing what's there a slow poke here a long stroke there obeying my desire moving as i say i follow and lead i excuse my conscience to see the great sea of every experience compressed in me all of my years each single moment waiting endlessly waiting to be often i smile sometimes i tear depends on the moment depends on the year i hear the keys increasing in pace i follow and lead they grant me grace a new line there i don't analyze and do not judge coming with a splash line after line until i'm spent exhausted and done it's always big fun to see what i've done sometimes disbelieving they came to be knowing and loving they'll outlive me 04.03.08 ![]() |